OCPD

August 4th 2010

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder. Is something that I have recently researched on through the web. Now within the past few years I've been noticing some behaviors of mine which somewhat fits into the description of some symptoms of OCD then I read on to find out about OCPD which I fit better into the description... a little too well.

An acquisition that I wish not to have added onto my personality or worse my traits. It use to be not as bad as it is now, I use to not yell or violently react to someone who puts things out of order the way I want it. When something is out of place yeah it bothers me, but sometimes I can't get to it. OCD says the most of the people are clean. OCPD states that the person can be fixated on something that they forget about everything else only some OCPD people are really clean. I am a very clean person but I distracted with other things. I become obsessively linked onto that thing or whatever it may be that my room can become a mess. When I realize it, it adds on to my anxiety. I don't like surprises nor do I like the phrase I have to talk to you about something or anything that gets me anxious.

No, I'm not diagnosed I'd rather not be. But I have researched and looked into it enough that I am in fact what it states. Again I just rechecked, it's something that I absolutely don't like thinking about but it fits.

I think I will keep a log or something or just to let myself come into realization of it not to make me feel more worse but just to try to train myself. Correct myself. If that at all is possible...