Hiding

August 21st 2010

I haven't wrote a note in a while but hi there. I've been contemplating on life, the future, education, and personal things. One thing that I've noticed is that I don't like hiding. Whether it be things, secrets, or experiences. I mean sure there are things you keep on lock and keys, I surely understand that. But things that don't seem right to you or completely indescribably wrong to you it's kind of hard to keep your mouth shut when you're stuck with something that you don't want but can't kick out or tell anyone about it. The fact of the matter is it's really getting to me. Seriously without a doubt it's gotten to me. But letting it roll of your back or dusting it off my shoulders isn't really helping. School adds more stress, thus making me even more vulnerable to the current situation. It's like hiding a monster, it's slowly consuming you, eating you alive. (metaphorically speaking of course) I wish that I could just run away never to look back or go back. But you realize why you're in the situation in the first place. Then you regret why you even hid such thing. Then you break down into a mentally unstable emotional cry. Yes, the fact is you should just not hide anything that you do not like.

-Claire