Oh those days...

you know exactly what I'm talking about. Those days where it seems so nice but you feel so much of the opposite of that? Yeah having those moments where things should be going great but in reality it really isn't so great. I get home sick. They say home is where the heart is... Where is my home? A place where I feel most comfortable. I seriously feel like a gypsy or a nomad sometimes. I was born in Cebu but where I lived is no where near the most comfortable. I mean sure I was content as a child that knew no better. When I look back I realized how horrible of a condition my old home use to be. Then when I came to Illinois I had a normalized home where I can feel safe secure and a place I can probably call my home. But that had to be taken away and the misery starts again. Without a home but an apartment. Probably a lot worse than what I had in Cebu. I seriously hated it there. Then out of nowhere I suddenly find myself in Arizona. The middle of the freaking dessert. wtf am I suppose to do in the middle of no where? There's a reason why it's called the middle of nowhere cause I know nothing here I know no one here. I miss Chicago, not because I probably felt most at home there... it's because of the people I know that I left there. Still they wonder why and I tell them, life led me here. (actually my mom but w.e.) When people have had enough or are not content with their current situation they find a way to get out of it... Can we just not be content with the snow? It's really not that bad. I miss the fall and when it's spring it rains. The air is clean and the summers are a perfect temperature. (Chicago) Unlike here in this filthy muck they call Arizona. Where the air is dirty, there only seems to be two seasons. I really can only enjoy it here when it's not hot. I really like the winters here cause it's the only way I get to feel how it feels like in chicago on a normal day... Now where is this heart you may ask? Oh my heart is in Chicago alright. He knows who he is. *cough *cough *babe *cough *cough. Excuse me. haha. But home wise? I'm not quiet sure... I will forever more be a gypsy. No where to really settle in...