Coldsick? What?

As I drink my homemade cinnamon coffee with a dash of nutmeg which you can substitute with pumpkin spice which I prefer. I glance outside to see that there's no warm colored leafs, no frost glazing the windows. Where are all the comfy yet stuffy layers of clothing? Where are my boots? Where are those soft fuzzy socks that I adore wearing?

I know some people would prefer to be somewhere warm right now but I really don't. I'm kind of homesick. I really do miss the cold. Hey don't call me crazy but I've grown accustom to the frigid, windy, winter weather of Chicago. Along with the smells of warm food which seem to grow stronger in the cold air.

I could care less if I had the sniffles but I really do miss those moments. Moments where we would all cuddle up in front of a big roaring fire and just enjoying each other's company while eating apple and/or pumpkin pie and sipping on warm soothing drinks. Watching the dogs wriggle uncomfortably as they attempt to take off their little coats and sweaters. Then taking family pictures with the funny looking pups.

There's probably only a few places where you can find snow and cold here in Arizona.... that would be the mountains in Flagstaff or Show Low some town like that. The only time it really gets cold now is early in the morning or late at night. The middle of the day the temperature is probably in the 70's something I would enjoy in the summer, like the summers in Chicago.

There's a pool outside which is strangely too cold to swim in because of the lack of a water heater...

There are malls here I guess where you can shop and what not but it just doesn't feel the same as it did in Chicago.

There are people here... a lot of FAKE and all around RUDE people. I'm not saying all of the people here are like that but there surely are a lot.

The atmosphere is... filled with dust. Just so lovely right? Oh and did I mention the smell of dairy farms? Yeah, dairy farms. it smells like a toilet somebody just took a crap in. It stays like that for a few hours and it comes and goes through out the day which quiet frankly is so not an inviting scent.

The point is I don't feel at home at all here.

It's been what? like a year since I've moved here... I'm already sick of it. There are some positive things but there are a lot more negative things.

Well when I'm out of high school and ready to go to college I'll be somewhere with all four seasons to experience throughout the year.