10.10.10

As I lie here thinking, pondering on thoughts accumulated throughout a short amount of time. I feel tears running down my cheek as if my body is telling me to be sad and cry but for what? What is the use? I am not sad, it's just one of those days where things could be better, you could be in a slightly better mood. You should have slept early last night, instead of eating pho.

I look through moments of the past which I would die just to relive the moment. I look at the people who were in that small hint of memory. I miss them all so dearly. It's been a year and more for some. I'd think that, or would like to think that they'd stop by to say hello but it's okay. I know I probably was, I don't know if I still am a pain in the butt for some people but you know what? Times have changed and I look back and I realized how stupid I was. I'm freaking turning 17 and it feels like a rush of enlightenment has flowed over me. <- okay, maybe that's a little bit too exaggerated but you know what I mean.

It's kind of like a mile stone... well actually 18 is what my miles stone is but w.e. I've been living for almost 17 years and it feels really good to be experiencing life. In general I know that life is hard I think everyone is going through and feeling the challenges life gives you. But there are those times when it seems you are happy and those are the days you live for.

I think that I'm going to name these journal entries or something just with a date as a title you'll know it's my "journal entry". YUPZ.

-Claire